November 2010
harry potter can kiss my ass.
This was my birthday, judge me
so this was my weekend
Who else is SO ready?
pssssst [ohmygodsoexcitedforchristmas]
Childhood- Article →
Can we, for a moment, flash back to the benign neglect of the 1970s and ’80s? I can remember my parents having parties, wild children running around until dark, catching fireflies. If these children helped themselves to three slices of cake, or ingested the second-hand smoke from cigarettes, or carried cocktails to adults who were ever so slightly slurring their words, they were not noticed;...
Hey girl can I please steal your body, I just kind of want it a little bit.
Anticipation
heybestfriend.
dear laine, I do not at all want to read you that letter because I hate myself and am pathetic. I am also incredibly masochistic because I didn’t have to tell you about it, but once it was found I felt like i was (DRAMATIC) living a lie if I didn’t tell it to you.
love, loser
But Oh how I do like it.
I should probably not ever smoke cigarettes because it brings on epic waves of nostalgia. This may be a problem, all I can say is its a good thing Laine is allergic, my mom hates it, and Alex makes it look like an thing you do to make yourself look addicted. I have enough unhealthy obsessions. A cigarette is like the perfect deja vu[i will have you know Dr. Parkinson, I edited the beginning of...
I have many skills.
Yes I do thankyouverymuch.
dear nyu.
absofab
1. diet
2. tan
3. eyebrows
4. nails done
5. hair trim
Why is putting so much effort into my current physical appearance the only thing that is validating me right now? Don’t care what that means psychologically, still doing it.
2011
For some reason this New Years is sticking out in my mind as something that must happen, I want myself and my ladies to be poured into a cab, and then poured some gin and tonic. I want to wear a classy coat, and go to a place nice enough to check it. The idea will be to feel very much as though we are all Serena and Blair. There needs to be sequins, stilettos, clutches, perfume, twenties, and bar...
_______have more fun ?
Plan
1. diet
2. haircut/trim
3. need eyebrows done
4. be smart
5. graduate school
6. pass this semester
7. stop dying my hair
8. get un-burnt out
i will always hate you. you will thank me later
I will always miss a lot of things.
Tough Life
Sometimes I am greatly upset by my/the female ability to make normal articles of clothing look pornographic.
“”si c’est beau, ca a pas besion d’etre vrai; et si...”
Cognitive Dissonance
by giving’ in what am I giving up.
damnit jared followill.
They'll fall asleep without you
I laugh because I am mediocre at everything. I don’t complete anything. If I was stupid but pretty and rich things could be okay. If I was smart, driven, and focused but ugly as hell I could sleep at night. I love these extremes, so I guess my hell is being forced between them. I laugh again because I cannot commit to either. The dichotomy is that I constantly feel as though I am pulled in...
“I used to be such a burning example,
I used to be so original.
I used to care,...”
I used to be such a burning example
i wish i could tell you that i will make it better. i wish i could say this will be the fire that inspires me. i’m just so sure i won’t ever be that person. fuck i don’t even know who or what that person is, but it is not be and it never has and never will be. i’m too embarrassed too…i don’t even know, i just want to fade away, i want to be forgotten so i...
I've come full circle
I have come totally full circle and ended up in the exact same place was this time two years ago. Sitting across the table from everyone I’ve tried to make take me seriously and be told, yet again, that I “just don’t want it bad enough.” Well lets see now; I’ve been rejected from the arts, I’ve been rejected from academia, I’m just waiting for wall street,...
I'll take an intervention please.
The only things I want to do now are: read Millay and listen to One Man Drinking Games while I draw endless black circles on notebook paper. I am really fucking up my life.
this is me putting myself on suicide watch
“The time has come for colds and overcoats.
We’re quiet on the ride,...”
– I will play my game beneath the spin light
1. cheese fries
2. figuring out a tough question at work
3. my cell phone
4. brand new playing in the car
5. getting the last free thing
6. kittens
7. tights
8. long torso shirts
9. friends making the heart with their hand
10. boys who are smarter than me
11. skipping biology
12. getting an excellent parking space after skipping biology
13.getting off at noon
14. free dum-dum...
Hoarse
I am so beyond pissed. Every time my mother goes to California she becomes this completely different person who couldn’t give less of a shit about what is happening to me. She doesn’t care that she got taken in with some goddamn plumber who charged us and didn’t fix shit, NEWS FLASH we still have fucking BROWN WATER. She won’t hear my pleas to fix our leaking roof, but...
