July 2011
“I’m too stressed out to like boys”
– me
FUCK YOU WHITE COLLAR
Cooking with Tequila
I just made some salsa. I don’t know if it is any good. It’s prob shitty. I should prob toss it. I havent tasted yet. yiiiiikes.
Nerves
I just need to get myself in one piece to the city. I need to not fall apart before I move furniture, get an apartment, start school, and say good bye. All these things I must do without falling apart.
Gooooooooood luck.
99 problems
Oh my god Guys, hey why don’t you get some cheese for that whine, and uhm CUT OUT YOUR VAGINA.
I have so many boys bitching at me right now, I am up to my ears in stupid drama and annoyance. I am just trying to have a bee uh, and talk about Soviet Russia. Get off my dick.
Dichotomy
I simultaneously hate and miss everyone.
Jobs
1. Hooters
2. Barnes & Noble
3. Phone Actress/Entertainer
“ Boys I like aren’t up this early unless it’s for High School.”
– S. Cait J. J. York Esq.
“Sexy is loving someone you don’t know”
– Jhumpa Lahiri, Sexy (Interpretor of Maladies)
Bands I like never stay together
ex. Deer and the Headlights, Envy
or stay together and RUIN MY LIFE
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you know who you are.
what does this say about me?
I just uttered the words: ” I like to be a pleasant surprise.”
It’s like when I said that Scarlett Johansson has a beautiful body but tries hard to make it “fashionable” and it comes off looking unflattering. That is something I definitely do, though I’m sure it works better on her than it does on me. I like to not always look wonderful. That way sometimes when...
Alright kid, you can do this.
Tonight. I am going to cook something.
okay. I’ll give you time to recover.
Tonight I am going to attempt to make some salsa from the tomatoes that the Wards gave us. It doesn’t look too hard. I know how to make Pico, and I have a recipe. I might need to get some green peppers though, because I don’t think we have any.
who knows, this could be the start of a new culinary...
The Third and Final Continent
“…while details of her face sometimes rose to my memory, I could not conjure up the whole of it.”—-Jhumpa Lahiri
I find it more easy to remember the whole of someone or something if that thing is meaningless.
While on the other hand the parts come to me when there is a lost familiarity.
I can remember faces and shapes of things I didn’t care for. But when you...
When we were young
To continue the vien of the last post I have another thought. It amazes me when I think about how young I was when I started thinking certain things, and when I was definitively formed. The books I read, the movies I repeated, these things became such an integral part of me, and now it is hard to know where my ideals started and these all books and classic movies ended. I have a continued arsenal...
You look a little bit like my brother Fred.
I learned a lot of fucked up things about ‘love’ from breakfast at tiffany’s and I see a lot of my unhealthy summations/habits in this movie.
It is so fucked up at times, but I still kind of want it. It is my standard of flawed perfection. It has everything I want even the sad parts that you don’t notice when you’re a little kid. This is not a happy movie, people...
gummylizards asked: omg why do u love cats and HP so much lol? uhm and y do u hate on the sagaaaaaaa????
Listen
oh my god someone could sell my mom a blowtorch...
Just to be a dick
I hate Zooey Deschanel and think she is a bad actress, not special looking, and her movies are generally crap. I get so annoyed with people who think she is the shit.
I feel
I feel a little ill.
Also a little bomb, and a little burrow…but I am sure the bird is coming too.
I am feeling the tension of being really different from everyone right now. I feel like I do not fit in with anyone around me: my goals, my dreams, my standards, my relationship status, my attitudes, my reactions,…just to name a few.
I rarely, if ever, feel like this, but I’d...
The world at large
I am feeling the weight of so many things, like dates, and money, and words, articulation, facades, rental fees, and internet messaging . And lacking so many things, like time, organization, empathy, understanding, comfort, and affection.
Angst Angst Angst
I cannot wait to get to that point where I don’t wish for old comforts when things do not go my way.
The only problem is, I am really impatient.
